The Reflecting rED

Today i hav nothing to write?... was jus goin through pages... found this article.. it says wht i want to write.. so i am posting it here..

For those who wonder why I feel down so much, well I've had a bad time. I knew this was going to happen but I had no idea how it would come. I tried to escape it by doing what I thought was right, but instead it just brought me to realize it had to come. I feared that I'd have no more friends, and as a matter of fact, that's how I felt and feel. When you see the future coming, you should know that it is inevitable.

The person this is mainly based on is my best friend. The people that are included in here are all those I truly love. A special person is however still in my heart. I feel her presence and love with me even at time's worst moments. Without her, I'd be lost. I wouldn't even be here if I did not believe in how much love she has for me. I just want her to know that how alone I may feel, she will always be there, in my heart.

The blood in the drawing represents my feelings of these people, slowly seeping out of me. It feels like now that what I loved is gone, there is no point for me to keep loving. All the remaining love that was stored I just can't keep no more.

The darkness that envelope me is depression, deep and highly sickening sadness and thoughts that just make me feel more and more horrible. Since it is so overwhelming, containing all of it would be impossible. I get rid of the love to release myself from depression. The pain will go and the scars will be marked, but only as a memory and no more reality.