The Reflecting rED

Today, just two minits be4 writing this..i was surfing .. jus going through som sites.. i got this picture.. world famous one.. how many times we hav seen this pciture on clothing.. i rember i read somthing lik the title som wher.. the posterboy of revolution.. i searched online got som facts abt him..actually the things i kno abt him was that of his guerrilla warfare..also abt cuban revolution..his death..etc..
This picture of him is actually a snapshot Alex Korda took when Che arrived at the seen of a Cuban ship that was destroyed by the U.S.

Ernesto Rafael Guevara(May 14, 1928—October 9, 1967)
Ernesto "Che" Guevara - revolutionary with a cause!

Untill yesterday i was using iTunes 6 for playing media files.. yesterday i got a new media player actually not new ..i had used it earlier..QCD palyer.. but this is a new version.. looks lik iTunes.. but nice appearance.. beta version.. using it.. found nice.. QMP player..so all try this one..its setup is very small ~ 3mb..
the link is http://www.quinnware.com/bin/qmp110.exe

Lik this song very much.. not remix..jus the old version..really nice song.. soulful one.. one of my all time favourites..

How u feel when someone hurt you.?...u feel sad..yea i know.. I never wanted to be sad.. but always ended at the wrong end .. Many things we learn by our previous mistakes.. but we fail to learn on some occasions.. life has this tendency..dunno if everyone's life have this..but surely my life always had.. not learning from mistakes on certain occasions.. as i said i never wanted to be sad.. in fact i never made myself available for such things..avoided.. some say i got stranded ..or was too much busy?.. dunno..but surely i wasn’t sad with myself..but when we do our best to avoid something ..what happens.. there is a strange law by which the reverse happens.. i have been experiencing this ..its really irritating ..hmm its more disturbing that our life are controlled by laws.. everything is explained by laws..why?.. but the core thing is that even when things went wrong...the calmness of my life... it was always there but.. these disturbances are like ripples..they grow.. but for a river these ripples mean nothing... but i cant neglect these things.. these small things do make some change in life?..
Sometimes i think emotions are burdens.. actually these ppl dont hurt me.. but i get hurt.. how.. thats the influence of mind.. but this influence ..its really the weakness.. lack of happiness isnt a sadness ..Expectations sometime tend make us feel hurt.. how to control it.. I dunno..i am thinking about it.. how to tackle this issue.. how to control these emotions.. hmm.. I think I missed a point .. when some one hurt you.. some even get furious.. why cant I be angry..?.. got to think.. Questions.. looking for an answer…

By the time I get the answer.. the question may have changed..

I deny your reality and substitute my own

Sinking into the depths of my solitude
Alone in the darkness
Blindly clutching for some form of fortitude
I see myself, so i know Im still here

I crave some kind of temporary happiness
In this forsaken creation of life
I cannot simply survive on my lonliness
craving some kind of permanence to grasp

How to start..i dunno ..anyway never had or never tried to hav a perfect start ... so the same applies here too... life seems to be going very fast... yes..its moving but not as i expected. . i never expected it to mov lik a F1 car..it dont hav 055 engine also the energy... and yes it didnt move lik that, its somthing different.. only thing i can compare it with is the flow of a wild river..it has got its own calmness and also at some parts it go wild.. the seasons change and the water never stops.. infact the same water drop never comes back once left........the only thing that dont fit into the context is that all rivers hav destinations and my life ..i think always lacked it.. targets..ambitions..goals..
The problem with such calm flow is that it has got some lazy element in it.. more over this laziness somtimes i tend think this calmness always hides something.. lik the calm rivers suddnly burst at som point ..the waterfalls.. and all the energy acquired from this calmness, burst ..an explosion like end.. it isnt a chain reaction.. anyway its som sudden change in situations that bring about such effects.. will this life hav som exciting finish..hmm i cant say its the end.. its jus turning points as we all say.. but we cant expect such happenings..but its around the corner..the silent calmness has got something to do with the life... the twists and turns.. ups and downs as we call these sudden changes...
But i got so much to do and ther is no time....
Still dunno what to do... but ther is still an air of calmness around..
The bubble can burst at any time..Expectations .. motivations..
The path has always been walked alone..
...i too walk my path alone.. think so ..but som ppl do hang around..so will this path be crowded once again?... Time has the answer..